I have recently been thinking about a certain milestone of my past. It's the first time I ever got hurt by a lady. That was three years ago. Yet, only recently, am I beginning to think about her again. For a long time I took every precaution I could to make sure the hurt was buried in the past in the hopes that I would dust myself off and move on with my life, but the more I think about it, the more I still wish I had another chance to make things right.I really don't know what it was about her that, to this day, makes me want to hold her in my arms in spite of all the things that happened between us.

It's like getting hit in the back of the head with a brick.

Regardless, I haven't had another girlfriend since...I've seen one that piqued my interest, but the day I planned to ask her out...well...let's just say it never happened. She moved away as swiftly as she had come, and I was left alone.

I don't even really know why this is starting to bother me now of all times. I guess when you don't have school anymore and it's 5:40 AM, you tend to go over your memories.

I don't know what will happen as far as my love life is concerned, but I don't think I have much longer to find another. Don't ask why. I just have a really bad feeling...